Let me direct your attention to a significant post over at Mystical Bewilderment on the Spiritual Turnpike, called Fallow Isn’t Just About Fields and Dreams. She discusses the periods we all go through when we are disconnected from our gods and spirits – which she has aptly named Fallow Times – why it happens, and what to do about it. This is something everyone on a spiritual path will encounter – some more often than others perhaps – even those of us who have built strong and long-term relationships and are deeply engaged with our practice. But it can be so hard to talk about – there is doubt, and shame, and reluctance to even face it at all. But facing it is exactly what will eventually bring you closer to Them – working through the roughest times will teach you more than all the pretty festive days and cool magic you do.
I’d also like to add something to her list of possible reasons one might enter Fallow Times:
- Simply put, it’s the mundane overpowering the spiritual.
- The gods are busy.
- We want it so badly, we block ourselves.
- It’s a test.
- There’s a problem.
I think I’ve encountered every single one of these at one point or another. But I’ve also noticed another source, which I doubt is wholly peculiar to me, and it’s something implied directly by the term “fallow.” Namely that after certain significant changes or events one goes through spiritually, it may be a natural part of the cycle to then experience a fallow period in reaction – because you’ve expended all your mojo, and/or because you need time to adjust to a new way of being. My spiritual life can be pretty…. dramatic, shall we say, and often after yet another big shake-up or challenge or oath or revelation, I will find myself temporarily removed to some degree from the gods or spirits involved in the event. But as long as I do what’s needed – rest, often, and also introspective work to make sure I understand what the next steps should be and what They have shown to me – and keep up with my practices, the connection will return… usually even stronger than it was before.