Sannion had a great post last week about what to do when things start going wrong in your life. I have been dealing with a series of small crises lately – nothing terribly dire, but enough to cause a good amount of stress. What makes that particularly difficult for me is that to do What I Do in regard to spirit-work and all of that, requires me to spend large amounts of time in certain types of headspace. Unsurprisingly, constant stress about mundane things is NOT conducive to said headspace. So of course, I’ve been a bit cranky about that, hating feeling like I’m being forced to deal with all this stuff when I should be deep in spirit contact. It’s not that I have no time for it, really, just that I have difficulty stopping the train of obsessive thinking once it gets going, and financial strain is a quick way to start that train. I am not a high energy person to begin with, and such things quickly drain my energy, deplete my “spoons” and I feel unable to focus on anything I really care about.
The other day I was mentally complaining about this to my gods, spirits, and Anyone who would listen, when I got back this stern but very accurate response from one of Them: “It is your choice what state of mind you enter into.” I immediately shut up.
Yes, it’s one of those things much easier said than done, but you only get there by practice – taking responsibility for your internal state and learning how to control it. Sure, I have a whole lot of mundane concerns to deal with and they are real and important and need attention…to a degree. But there’s certainly no need for a constant mental overview of all the problems and possible solutions to the point where it drowns out everything else. And it IS possible to set those things aside and CHOOSE to enter into an entirely different consciousness, where I can reach my gods and spirits and do my Work and get inspiration and all of that. And in fact, such a challenge will strengthen my overall ability to attain such states and contact.
So I’m writing this here as a reminder to myself, and to anyone else that needs it, for I find that such lessons are an ongoing project. None of us is perfect, and we all have our Achilles’ heels (one of mine being obsessive thinking), but putting the gods and spirits first means learning to recognize such situations and striving to rise above them. I can’t always control external circumstances, but I can control my response, and my own mind. Each time I catch myself falling into this trap, I will try to change my approach. I won’t always succeed, but my spirits, and the Work I do for Them, are well worth the effort.
[A reminder that my fundraiser to get a new laptop and write my next book will be going on throughout February!]